You know when you just can’t sleep because you have something, well someone on your mind. Ugh, this is weird. Why is this happening? I need to sleep because I have a 9 hour shift tomorrow and I am sigh as I have to leave my house at 07:10. Omg, shhh Jam.
I haven’t kissed/been kissed by someone in what feels like forever. I also don’t feel like I’ve had a cuddle off someone in so long. I mean sure I hug people but its not the same.
I just want to find someone where I can be complete self around and they’ll accept me just because they love me. I want to cuddle up to someone in bed and watch a movie and kiss softly and then sleep with them. I mean sleep in a sense of just being able to lie next to someone and feel their body heat and everything would be glorious.
Just taken the first dose of my new medication… Hopefully these ones will actually work! I hate taking tablets but if they help then I’ll carry on taking them.
There was a guy on my course and he is an actual star like seriously. Sure he likes me and that’s totally awkward in a sense because well yeah, but he’s lovely. The other night I crashed completely whilst talking to him and it fucking sucked but he managed to be the wonderful person that he is and make me feel a tad better.
I feel bad because he is lovely and I can be a bitch to him but in all fairness if you’re going to call a girl a bitch she will be a bitch. I really hope I stay in contact with him as well as all the other people that were on my course. You’re all wonderful and I miss you.
A lot of people tend to say that I have like big boobs and I really don’t think I do because of the bra size I wear…
I’ve just tried on all bras and none, I repeat none of them fit like they’re meant to. This means I need to go get fitted and shopping.
I’m pretty sure I’ve been wearing a back size too big and two cup sizes too small. I should probably go and get something sorted because maybe my boobs will then stop hurting and stuff.
I went to get my bra size measured today, since none of mine fit me right and all I can say is jfc. I went to two places to double check. I thought I was one size… Turn out that size is like 3 times too small.
I know people are like ‘your boobs are big Jam’ and now I understand why. I am so fucking happy. Well done boobs, well done you.
Considering I need to leave my house in just over 6 hours, I should probably go to sleep. I cannot be bothered with tomorrow. I want to work rather than do my course in some homeless shelter and stuff. Ugh. I need a day off because I’m stressing out and ugh.
My head is actually killing… It’s all like migraine-y but not if that makes sense. It just feels like someone is stabbing me in 4 corners and jfc, it is so painful. As a result my eyes are fucking up and I feel like I’m going to throw up. Ugh.