I'm Jam. 21.
Insane earthling with a cat complex. Meow.
Weeps at tv shows and drools over women, wbu?
Sleeping alone is taking its toll on me since them days. I miss having you in my bed, me sleeping on your chest with your arms wrapped around me, them little kisses you give on my forehead to prove to me I’m safe with you. I’m just ugh. What sucks is the fact I feel like I’m falling for someone I know I shouldn’t because of reasons but uh, you’re such a nerd and adorkable and sigh.
I need to make a start on packing but omg It’s so much hard work to pack up everything you own. Ugh, this moving stuff is stressful. However I am super duper excited to be moving into my own house :P
Feeling all grown up and proud of myself today cause I’m off to have a look at the house I should be moving into. Weeeee, you don’t know how cool this is.
I really want to sleep but I’m not tired in the slightest and this actually upsets me. I feel like shit tbh and therefore all I want to do is go to sleep, that is to avoid taking anything out on myself. Ugh, I hate it ‘cause sleeping is fab and I don’t sleep properly. Oh, what I would do for a good nights sleep. Sigh.
Here is a list of things that suck right now:
- I miss people
I never thought I’d be where I am right now. I’m having to make a decision between two people and it’s really hard because I don’t really know what to do. One is a good friend whom acts like a dick a lot but yesterday I learnt a different side of them. Then there’s my closest best friend and that’s where it’s difficult because they both know each other. I’m not sure what to do but I know that I don’t want to lose either of them. Making a choice is hard and the fact they have both said I need to make one kind of hurts. I need to really think, I want to spend time with them both alone to see what happens but idk. Ugh.
People who I know always tend to get involved with other people’s business, especially when it really has nothing at all to do with them. Really starting to get sick of it all if I’m honest. I want to be able to live my life and do what I want without people trying to stick their noses in. At the moment I have a fair amount going on and idk what is going to come of it. A thing has made me happy though and I don’t want that to change, well change of the better sort would be fab. I’m going on too much, shhh.
I’ve found myself at a point and I’ve lost all hope in everyhing and everyone. It’s time to step back and stop fighting all of this. Everything isn’t what it’s meant to be like and I can’t handle that.