I'm Jam. 21.
Insane earthling with a cat complex. Mow.
Weeps at tv shows, laughs at self and drools over women, wbu?
Oh hey tumblr… So uhm yeah I has a girlfriend now and she’s awesome so go me and stuff.
Collecting my keys for my house at 10:30am tomorrow. Aaaaaaah, I am so excite. Getting my mammas husband to help me move as well, so by tomorrow evening I’ll be all moved in then off to Jake and Nat’ party.
Need to do somethings for myself and the way I’ve decided to go is cutting everyone from my life for a while and some for good. I need to sort myself out and do it before I end up breaking down bad ‘cause I know what would happen. I don’t know if this is the right choice but I guess time will tell. Only 1 of my friends know my new address and that’s only because I know how much they care. I usually have a queue so enjoy that and I’ll come back when I’m in a better place. If my queue runs out then it means I lost. So good bye.
Sleeping alone is taking its toll on me since them days. I miss having you in my bed, me sleeping on your chest with your arms wrapped around me, them little kisses you give on my forehead to prove to me I’m safe with you. I’m just ugh. What sucks is the fact I feel like I’m falling for someone I know I shouldn’t because of reasons but uh, you’re such a nerd and adorkable and sigh.
I need to make a start on packing but omg It’s so much hard work to pack up everything you own. Ugh, this moving stuff is stressful. However I am super duper excited to be moving into my own house :P
Feeling all grown up and proud of myself today cause I’m off to have a look at the house I should be moving into. Weeeee, you don’t know how cool this is.
I really want to sleep but I’m not tired in the slightest and this actually upsets me. I feel like shit tbh and therefore all I want to do is go to sleep, that is to avoid taking anything out on myself. Ugh, I hate it ‘cause sleeping is fab and I don’t sleep properly. Oh, what I would do for a good nights sleep. Sigh.
Here is a list of things that suck right now:
- I miss people
I never thought I’d be where I am right now. I’m having to make a decision between two people and it’s really hard because I don’t really know what to do. One is a good friend whom acts like a dick a lot but yesterday I learnt a different side of them. Then there’s my closest best friend and that’s where it’s difficult because they both know each other. I’m not sure what to do but I know that I don’t want to lose either of them. Making a choice is hard and the fact they have both said I need to make one kind of hurts. I need to really think, I want to spend time with them both alone to see what happens but idk. Ugh.